Hello to all. I've have been reluctant to post for several reasons.
1. The idea of being pregnant is still sinking in.
During my 2 years of infertility, I've almost just accepted that my body won't allow for conception to happen. It's just become a part of me, so to be pregnant is all new territory. Almost seems to good to be true. I'm now about 11.5 weeks pregnant and I still can't really believe it.
2. I've been holding my breath. Figuratively, of course.
With my history (wacky hormones, uterine malformation, and endo), my OB, DH, and I have been proceeding very cautiously. I thought that miscarriage was a real possibility, not to be ignored. After I got the BFP, I just kept thinking that the pregnancy was just going to disappear.
3. I set out to write about infertility.
I'm horrible at journalling. I like the idea. I like to write. I have thoughts. But I just can't get into it. So the blog was a way to journal, without actually journalling. Plus, there have been so many things that I've found amusing or ironic that I'm sure other infertiles can relate to. Now I'm pregnant. The whole flavor of the blog changes.
4. I feel for my fellow infertiles.
About 2 months ago, I was following a blog about infertility and the author got pregnant. Although I was happy for her, I stopped following her blog. I didn't want to hear about pregnancy. I wanted to be in the company of my fellow infertiles. I now know that being pregnant, doesn't erase the years of struggling. Those are important years in our lives... God has used them to help build character in DH and I. How could I regret that? But I wonder if infertiles want to read my blog anymore. I don't blame them if they don't.
Ok. So enough about that.
Quick update: I'm doing well. I got to see our little sweetheart swimming around at our last ultrasound. I haven't really gained any weight yet. I've been trying to eat all the healthy food I can stand. I'm having a cerclage done next week (yikes... a bit anxious about that).
I thank God every day for this miracle.
I can't stop reading blogs on infertility. I sincerely hope for miracles for the girls who are still waiting.
Thanks for reading.
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So glad to see a new post from you! I think everyone, PG or still struggling, understands the survivor's guilt thing. But I hope you still stay active. Success for another infertile gives me hope, not sadness. Hope you're feeling well!!
ReplyDeleteOh thanks, R.J. That's really sweet of you to say. Your kind words make me feel good. Hope all's well with you.
ReplyDeleteYou know, I have similar feelings... I mean, I'm not pregnant yet, but when people get pregnant that were on my infertility blog reading list, I move them over to another folder (the same one you are in.) I think the difference between blogs I drop and yours is that you aren't like "Suck it infertiles, I obviously have a superior uterus!" You are aware of where you were, and that makes where you are (at least for me) more special.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I dunno if I told you, but congrats to you!
Thanks, Julia. I'm so humbled by your words. I can't imagine forgeting what we've been through. I even appreciate my surgery scars because they remind me of how far we've come.
ReplyDeleteI knew I liked infertile girls! Thanks for all of your support. God bless!
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6. Unpleasant smell from the virginal, virginal itching
7. Irregular menstruation
8. Weakness of the penis (not able to have sex with your partner or inability to satisfy your partner sexually)
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10. Infertility for easy Conception.......
11. Skin diseases, Toilet infection and bad body odor…….Etc..
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