Oh my gosh, oh my gosh

It's weird.

You play it out in your head over and over. What would I do if I got a BFP? I just imagined that I would be jumping up and down, crying, screaming, total delight.

But that's so not what happened. I just kept looking at the test and the faint extra line that I've never seen before. I repeated, "Oh my gosh, oh my gosh," I don't know how many times. I kept going back and looking at it, waiting for that second pink line to disappear. I went out and bought another set of 2 tests to be sure I didn't get a bad stick. Both were positive. I told my husband when he got home from work and he looked at me, cocked his head, and said "Whaaaat?"

Not how I imagined it. But I'm kind of glad about that. This was true, genuine shock.